just spent 90 min in the kitchen. homemade pizza from scratch. used mozz teese since two different whole foods locations i went to were out of the daiya. also made a potato leek soup for dinner and for lunch and dinner tomorrow. the soup is okay. its not as good as the corn chowder i have been making. then made some chocolate chip cookies. i originally wanted to take the cookies to my class tomorrow for when we are done with our final test. i should have used the tried and true recipe i finally perfected last fall, but i decided to use one out of vegan cookies invade your cookie jar. i had never used this one before, but i had all the stuff for it. i deviated a little bit, added some mint and walnuts and flax seed. called for tapioca. cookies came out alright. they are soft but a little on the gummy side b/c of the tapioca. undecided if i am going to take them in to school b/c they didn't turn out quite like i was hoping.
after i was finished in the kitchen, i did what any respectful (to herself, and also to those that use the same common areas) would do, and cleaned up my mess. what a fucking concept! i wish my roommates were hip to it. i am ready to move out i'm getting so frustrated with it. also, there is so much waste! so much produce is purchased just to sit and rot on the countertop. today the oven was left to pre heat for an hour. last sunday, the stove was in use when i left for work at 1030am. when i came back home at 6pm, the burner was still on, but no one was cooking anything.
i'm not sure if this is what is really bothering me or if its just more icing on the cake. i have a working interview tomorrow with a dentist office that is kinda close by. i went last week for a talking interview and it went really well. they called me back for a working interview, which i am going to go to tomorrow morning. i can only do a half day b/c i have to work at the surgeon's office in the afternoon. i really do need to get out of there b/c i am miserable there. its just really slow and the truth is that i am lonely. its also sometimes taking close to 90 minutes to commute there in the morning. i really don't like spending my time just sitting in traffic like that.
deep down i know that just getting another job or another living situation isn't going to solve any of my (perceived) problems. maybe its that school is ending tomorrow and i once again find myself at a fork in the road. do i stay on the path i am on, busy busy busy work work work, bitch bitch bitch, or do i take the fork. new job, new apt, semester off school. quit my job, sublease my place, take a trip. enjoy summer. move back to my stl. which fork should i take.
i went out to get lunch today at a place close by here that i like a lot. they didn't have the sandwich i was hoping for, so i didn't get anything. every single time i'm out in the neighborhood, and especially every time i'm crossing under the el tracks at milwaukee, my eyes are scanning always scanning. as much as i hate seeing giuseppe b/c it makes me sad, i want to see him. even just a passing glimpse. my heart wants what my heart wants and i want to stab it for it. i am slightly disappointed with myself that this much time has elapsed and i'm still not over it.
i'm not typing anything that i haven't typed before.
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