Sunday (yikes!)

I made a porno today.  With Wisconsin Adonis who was in town for 48 hours.  He suggested it, I said, "SURE!"  We fucked in the swing, on the floor, and I blew him and jerked him off.  We set up one camera across the room so there was not a close-up of the money shot.  I ejaculated twice, he came once.  It was maybe a little awkward at times, but overall I enjoyed it.  It was fun to watch it.  I would definitely do it again.

I went to a show last night, was looking super cute in new party dress, black moto jacket and black boots.  Got shithammered on Wild Turkey and probably had no business driving to after hours, but that is what happened, and it cannot be undone.

 At the show, KV's cousin Jason was laying it on THICK!!  "You can put your hand on my back," I said.  We hung out at the show and then until 3am at after hours, traded numbers, and have been texting a few times this afternoon.  I called off work, he had to be there at 6am. BRUTAL!  I've had my eye on him since I met him/first saw him at Do What's house party back in June.  I'm glad he doesn't have a baby mama or any baggage like that.  I look forward to hanging out again, sooner than later.










At the show, a bouncer bought me a t-shirt and then we made plans to meet up later this week to make plans for a NYE trip to SF for a sweet show.  I'm into it, but he has been insisting on paying for it, which makes me think that he is expecting me to put out in return.  I very clearly told him that I was not interested in that, and I wanted both us to be clear on the situation.  So we'll see.  I won't allow myself to get into a situation that I don't want.  Plus, I would have to request off work the 30th, so that could be a potential snag.

Also at the show, Wiffleball's baby sis was flipping her hair over (a different) Jason like 15 times!  I told him, "Dude, make your move.  I'm watching this chick flip her hair at you like 15 times."  He was very aware of the flirting and wanted to so badly but didn't want David to be pissed at him, especially since they will have to be on tour together for another month.  So, no hook-up, which is a shame since we're all adults here.  Right?






I saw Bryan at the show.  We both smiled and said hello and went about our respective night.  An easy interaction.  I have not seen or spoken to him in over a year.  I'm disappointed about being broken up with via text and after I finally gave it up ONCE!!  But at the end of the day, life is too short to get hung-up on things that cannot be changed or controlled.

 After after hours, Jackson and I came back to the house and got to it.  We did it for a long time.  He was super high on Adderall and cocaine and booze.  I was just drunk on Wild Turkey.  I still managed to come several times, soaking the floor under the swing and also the bedsheets.  We passed the eff out until the afternoon.  I like looking at his strong chest and shoulders.  He was also very warm, which was comforting since that house was freezing!  Also, he doesn't cuddle with me, maybe an arm close every now and then.  It's fine with me, I prefer to not cuddle anyway.

I didn't go to work today, or really eat anything other than a banana and some cereal.  My guts are a little bubbly.  I have made a lot of progress on my paper.  Not a lot of progress studying for this test.  I keep reading the chapters, but nothing is sticking.  It's frustrating because I know my instructor (as well as my own self) is expecting a lot.

This song is such a jam.  "All I want to say to you is that I wish you were mine.  And all I want to do to you if everything all the time."