Ribcage

Several things on my mind.

I'm glad it's the weekend.  My jerk co-worker really gets to me by the end of the workweek and I'm glad I don't have to see her big, loud, mouth for another 48 hours.  16 months and I won't have to see her again....ever.  But "Who's Counting Anyway," right!

I just this morning learned that me ex if getting married to the girl he started dating after me.  I was crushed for about 30 seconds, but I'm okay with it.  It's been a long time, I'm pleased with where I am and what I'm doing. And life it too short to get hung-up on things that cannot be changed.

I am going to go work out this morning.  I have a lot of aggression to get out.  Last week, I swear I had an orgasm at the gym.  We were nearing the end of the last round and the trainer is counting down and yelling for us to keep it up, finish strong, etc.  And Motorhead was blasting through the speakers, I was working so hard and sweating and punching the shit out of the heavy bag.  I usually imagine that I am punching my jerk co-worker in the mouth, stomach, torso, and this day was no exception.  I started yelling, "FUCK YOU HEATHER!!!!  FUCK YOUR FAT FACE!!  I HATE YOU!!!  I HATE YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!! FUCK YOUR FAT MOUTH!!!" and then I just exploded.  The buzzer sounded the end of class.  I bought a Vitamin water and drove home without incident.  I'm looking for a repeat today.

Last night I had an erotic dream about one the trainers I have a crush on.  Hhe's only 22! and is a total Adonis. He is by far my favorite one there, which surprises me because he has blonde hair, and I usually go for the dark hair. Also surprised about the dream because I would never act on the little crush I have. 22 is too young; he's probably a total idiot. However, he is strong and could hold me up against the wall. But anytime I have an erotic dream, I am the aggressor, the one in control. However, in the dream, he was the one that came onto me, which made me feel really good. But then I knew it was game on and I became like a huntress. Strong and aggressive. I had a target and I knew what to do to get it.

Sexy cop is going to be in town for 48 hours starting tomorrow!!  

If I was married, I wouldn't be able to continue to run around being gluttonously lustful and doing whatever I want.

I've also been blasting Bronx 1 - IV all week.  Shit is sooooo tight.  The commentary tracks on IV crack me up.  "Whenever life has got you beaten down, just throw your hands into the sky and scream, "I WANT MY LAWYER!!"