Thursday, November 28, 2013

Giving Thanks

Today, I am thankful that I don't have to see my mean co-worker for another four days.  Also thankful that I have a plan, am not stuck, and am able to prune diseased leaves from my vine.

Also, there's this (again):


Monday, November 25, 2013

what's the catch (and release)?

I don't know if my mean/jerk coworker's husband effed her this weekend or what, but she was actually nice to me today. I'm not counting that this is a permanent change, but it was welcome nonetheless.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Thirty eight

Sooooo, on Friday, Jason came up here (he lives 60 miles south), and we went to a house party at the The Cove. I was excited because Dude's dudes know how to throw a party!  Jason was excited because he had not seen one of the bands in almost a year, and was pumped for a house show.

We met up at my house then drove to get food on Cherokee.  Conversation was great, tortas were great, the vibe at El Bronco was great.  I love when Mexican dudes are dressed to the nines in cowboy attire.  There was a mariachi in house, too!  I only know two Mexican folk songs, but El didn't come by our table, anyway.

After food, we went on an everquest to buy booze.  The first two places we went didn't sell liquor!  Simply unbelievable!  In the ghetto of south St. Louis, too!  We ended up going to a grocery store.

We arrived at the party just before the bands got started.  Line-up was solid, there was a fair amount of people there.  We stayed in the front room so we could see.  'Hawk got on the mic a few times.  Always entertaining.

After the party, we headed back to my house.  Jason came in the house.  I was freezing/shivering even though I was wearing pants, two pair of socks, shirt, hoodie, and coat, and gloves and scarf.  Jason sat on the couch, and I kind of laid down next to him with my legs wrapped around his waist for warmth.  We joked around and talked and ate some chips before going to sleep. 

My intention going in to the night, and I had this discussion with both Lew and Jackson on Monday, was to not fuck him, just make-out.  And we did make out.  I enjoyed kissing him, he is a good kisser.  Things just slowly escalated, and we did end up doing it.  I think that Jason either was super nervous or had not been with a girl in a long time. Possibly both.  I could tell he was nervous/excited by his breathing.  I got on top on him, and he came rather quickly.  Prior to that, there was a lot of foreplay, including fingering, which I liked a lot.  He made a move to go down on me, but I pulled him back up toward my mouth.  We had the lights off, too.  He is not fat, but his body is not hard.  He was impressed with how hard/flat my stomach is.  I'm not complaining about the hook-up.  We went to sleep, and he was so warm laying next to me.  The house was freezing!  It was very nice having a warm body next to me.

Jason is a smart guy.  And he has been sweet and kind to me.  He has texted me a lot, but has not been annoying.  He correctly uses punctuation and grammar.  He has a lot of interesting things to talk about with me, and we have similar interests.  It's nice.  We are going out again next weekend.  I'm excited :)

Monday, November 18, 2013

Sunday (yikes!)

I made a porno today.  With Wisconsin Adonis who was in town for 48 hours.  He suggested it, I said, "SURE!"  We fucked in the swing, on the floor, and I blew him and jerked him off.  We set up one camera across the room so there was not a close-up of the money shot.  I ejaculated twice, he came once.  It was maybe a little awkward at times, but overall I enjoyed it.  It was fun to watch it.  I would definitely do it again.

I went to a show last night, was looking super cute in new party dress, black moto jacket and black boots.  Got shithammered on Wild Turkey and probably had no business driving to after hours, but that is what happened, and it cannot be undone.



 At the show, KV's cousin Jason was laying it on THICK!!  "You can put your hand on my back," I said.  We hung out at the show and then until 3am at after hours, traded numbers, and have been texting a few times this afternoon.  I called off work, he had to be there at 6am. BRUTAL!  I've had my eye on him since I met him/first saw him at Do What's house party back in June.  I'm glad he doesn't have a baby mama or any baggage like that.  I look forward to hanging out again, sooner than later.










At the show, a bouncer bought me a t-shirt and then we made plans to meet up later this week to make plans for a NYE trip to SF for a sweet show.  I'm into it, but he has been insisting on paying for it, which makes me think that he is expecting me to put out in return.  I very clearly told him that I was not interested in that, and I wanted both us to be clear on the situation.  So we'll see.  I won't allow myself to get into a situation that I don't want.  Plus, I would have to request off work the 30th, so that could be a potential snag.






Also at the show, Wiffleball's baby sis was flipping her hair over (a different) Jason like 15 times!  I told him, "Dude, make your move.  I'm watching this chick flip her hair at you like 15 times."  He was very aware of the flirting and wanted to so badly but didn't want David to be pissed at him, especially since they will have to be on tour together for another month.  So, no hook-up, which is a shame since we're all adults here.  Right?






I saw Bryan at the show.  We both smiled and said hello and went about our respective night.  An easy interaction.  I have not seen or spoken to him in over a year.  I'm disappointed about being broken up with via text and after I finally gave it up ONCE!!  But at the end of the day, life is too short to get hung-up on things that cannot be changed or controlled.

 After after hours, Jackson and I came back to the house and got to it.  We did it for a long time.  He was super high on Adderall and cocaine and booze.  I was just drunk on Wild Turkey.  I still managed to come several times, soaking the floor under the swing and also the bedsheets.  We passed the eff out until the afternoon.  I like looking at his strong chest and shoulders.  He was also very warm, which was comforting since that house was freezing!  Also, he doesn't cuddle with me, maybe an arm close every now and then.  It's fine with me, I prefer to not cuddle anyway.

I didn't go to work today, or really eat anything other than a banana and some cereal.  My guts are a little bubbly.  I have made a lot of progress on my paper.  Not a lot of progress studying for this test.  I keep reading the chapters, but nothing is sticking.  It's frustrating because I know my instructor (as well as my own self) is expecting a lot.

This song is such a jam.  "All I want to say to you is that I wish you were mine.  And all I want to do to you if everything all the time."


Saturday, November 16, 2013

Ribcage

Several things on my mind.

I'm glad it's the weekend.  My jerk co-worker really gets to me by the end of the workweek and I'm glad I don't have to see her big, loud, mouth for another 48 hours.  16 months and I won't have to see her again....ever.  But "Who's Counting Anyway," right!

I just this morning learned that me ex if getting married to the girl he started dating after me.  I was crushed for about 30 seconds, but I'm okay with it.  It's been a long time, I'm pleased with where I am and what I'm doing. And life it too short to get hung-up on things that cannot be changed.

I am going to go work out this morning.  I have a lot of aggression to get out.  Last week, I swear I had an orgasm at the gym.  We were nearing the end of the last round and the trainer is counting down and yelling for us to keep it up, finish strong, etc.  And Motorhead was blasting through the speakers, I was working so hard and sweating and punching the shit out of the heavy bag.  I usually imagine that I am punching my jerk co-worker in the mouth, stomach, torso, and this day was no exception.  I started yelling, "FUCK YOU HEATHER!!!!  FUCK YOUR FAT FACE!!  I HATE YOU!!!  I HATE YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!! FUCK YOUR FAT MOUTH!!!" and then I just exploded.  The buzzer sounded the end of class.  I bought a Vitamin water and drove home without incident.  I'm looking for a repeat today.

Last night I had an erotic dream about one the trainers I have a crush on.  Hhe's only 22! and is a total Adonis. He is by far my favorite one there, which surprises me because he has blonde hair, and I usually go for the dark hair. Also surprised about the dream because I would never act on the little crush I have. 22 is too young; he's probably a total idiot. However, he is strong and could hold me up against the wall. But anytime I have an erotic dream, I am the aggressor, the one in control. However, in the dream, he was the one that came onto me, which made me feel really good. But then I knew it was game on and I became like a huntress. Strong and aggressive. I had a target and I knew what to do to get it.

Sexy cop is going to be in town for 48 hours starting tomorrow!!  

If I was married, I wouldn't be able to continue to run around being gluttonously lustful and doing whatever I want.

I've also been blasting Bronx 1 - IV all week.  Shit is sooooo tight.  The commentary tracks on IV crack me up.  "Whenever life has got you beaten down, just throw your hands into the sky and scream, "I WANT MY LAWYER!!"

Thursday, November 14, 2013

SusanBot

I am cracking up at this app that combines the most used words on my FB status updats/comments/captions, etc.  Shit is hilarious:

These things are supposed to be in there.

-SusanBot
 

Both are male brothers, 7 months old, gray, claws and balls but dewormed. I even climbed into the attic to measure.

-SusanBot
 

I'm ready for my sponge bath, the mention that i'm in a threadbare towel or pass out. Have been attacked by those territorial black birds that test!

-SusanBot
 

Hilarious. Whenever life has anxiety.

-SusanBot
 

I had my first time for a threadbare towel or I hope to find a stud. If I hope to see so many people and Chi as well!

-SusanBot
 
 

in the stir fry just now, too. just got WET.

-SusanBot
 

Yeah, I can drop my four OWTH albums later.

-SusanBot

According to find a stud. After I feel good ten pounds of these things are supposed to be at swimming for the way in! HAHAHAHA!!!

-SusanBot
 

Ironically, I am putting an accommodating vagina, after hours after work sometime this week or sheet.

-SusanBot
 
 

Both are male brothers, 7 months old, gray, claws and only if there any of the available larger sizes and some regular pants!

-SusanBot
 

Ironically, I will be on the floor at west county.

-SusanBot
 
 

Out of town friends, and my glasses are somewhere on the floor at Beat Kitchen.

-SusanBot
 
 

I'm ready for an accommodating vagina, after I did overestimate my mind.

-SusanBot
 

I had a Wednesday night series starting in the house.

-SusanBot
 

weiner dog was a beer deliveryman knocking on my year!

-SusanBot
 

Well, Gainesville, what a weekend!

-SusanBot
 

Bra was never put on!

-SusanBot
 

As long as real dudes live here.

-SusanBot
 
 

GAAAAH! I'm also stressed out because I can drop my simcard into the sky and scream, 'I WANT MY LAWYER!!!'

-SusanBot
 
 

I had a great start. Best weekend of the available larger sizes and the front clasp.

-SusanBot
 
 

What a BEAST, and I'll be at SubT, too!

-SusanBot
 

I had a wienie!

-SusanBot
 

I had my first big girl phone

-SusanBot
 

Now I will be celebrating with a stud. Glad I even climbed into the zubaz look.

-SusanBot
 

several crit events coming up with their fill and singing along, getting so naked and new looking.

-SusanBot
 

Eating my way across Portland!!

-SusanBot
 
 Let's do this! Greetings from MPLS.
-SusanBot
 

I had a great start. Best weekend or not. If OWTH is staying at my neck and they puked up in dis piece?

-SusanBot
 
 

Thank you for dinner. Alf my liver is not fucking around!

-SusanBot
 
 

This still makes me laugh!

-SusanBot
 

Also, I for that I brought my Have you are A BEAST, and i at a roach motel! HAHA!

-SusanBot
 
 

Also, I sent you a threadbare towel or sheet.

-SusanBot

I had a room at a roach motel! HAHAHAHA!!!

-SusanBot
 
 

I had a board. Can I get some lunch.

-SusanBot
 

My neck and my sponge bath, the sooner the better!

-SusanBot
 

I had a break to get some regular pants!

-SusanBot
 
 

Nice to see if I'm drinkin' whisky!

-SusanBot
 
 

The cutest boys in Chicago reside in Logan Square.

-SusanBot
 

I'm ready for my sponge bath, the sooner the better!

-SusanBot
 

Thank you ever been attacked by those territorial black birds that nest under my belt.

-SusanBot
 

Also, I for real just ate like 3 cups of broccoli.

-SusanBot
 

.I would like to pull off the zubaz look.

-SusanBot
 
 

I had a break to get an '!AYE CARAMBA!'?

 

Haha! And ice cold beer.

-SusanBot
 

I had a carcass, and they puked up their heads in Logan Square.

-SusanBot
 

Tell your crush how you feel.

-SusanBot
 
 

Well, Gainesville, what a pool party, and a litmus test.

-SusanBot
 
 

And yes, I saw nursing bras at the house.

-SusanBot
 
 

is it just a coincidence that i'm not fucking around!

-SusanBot
 

Developed a roll of partydom.

-SusanBot
 

I had a bowl of lettuce and I aced that test!

-SusanBot
 

and rail tequila.

-SusanBot
 
 

weiner dog was supposed to find a stud. Solid sets all make me smile.

-SusanBot
 
 

Nine bands, one trip to TAAAAACOBUS.

-SusanBot
 

Well, Gainesville, what a stud. Scrathy scratch in the Fest!

-SusanBot
 
 

Its beautiful. I approached. This party started!

-SusanBot
 

AND only the dog chased me.

-SusanBot
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Friday recap

Productive Friday.

I went to the bank, went to the post office, mailed Pam a money order for the painting, which should be delivered by mid-week. 

Went to FP and signed up for the dental hygiene program (finally on the list!!) This ordeal/effort to get on the list has been going on since July and has been a huge source of frustration.  I would be naive to think that paper shufflers/red tape/hoops to jump/general bureaucracy would allow for smooth sailing.  I was told that2014 was full, but I was mid-list for 2015.  So now I know.  And it feels really good.  I have had extreme anxiety over not knowing if I was going to matriculate this coming fall or next and the financial obligations that are going to come with it, how much longer I need to remain unhappy with my jerk-co-worker,  uncertainties with trips/vacations and planning that, even tough it is far in the future and I shouldn't get worked up and crazy over things I cannot change or control.  They accepted all my transfer classes and there is only one class I need....sociology.  So I will probably sign up for that for spring.  It's only going to cost ~$5100 for tuition for the whole program, which I have over half of that saved up already.

Ok, so back to vacation, my sister wants to go to Iceland, this summer, which would be sweet, and I do want to go to Iceland, but there are other things I want to do first.  Also, I have been talking about Pacific-Atlantic bike trip for----eight years.  And I've always put if off for reasons that, at the end of the day shouldn't matter, but do.  But if I know I'm going to start school in August 2015 for a two-year program that will require me to quit my job, then I will quit my job in May and go on the trip then.  I will have to decide if I want to join a guided tour, which I have seen several offered, including a women-only group.  Or I could ask Rootbeer or Will to go.  I will hit them up in the spring, when there is a one-year notice to make plans.

Then there is the choice of which route to take...Southern, Northern, or Trans (mid).  Southern would be nice in that we could leave earlier in the year.  It is also the shortest and we'd be done in less that 2 months. I'm not looking to rush, though.  I'd love to go on day trips hiking or rafting or spelunking if those type of activities were available.

I could make myself crazy with all these far-off future plans.  I need to chill out.  There is a calmness, though, since I know, and it feels really nice.

OK, back to awesome Friday.  My folks were out of town and asked me to come over to babysit my brother and the dog.  So I went back to IL and the dog and I went hiking at Salt Lick.  Encountered five others on the trail.  The fall foliage was gorgeous, the air was crisp but I got sweaty under my jacket from all the climbing.  Wiener dog loved it!!!  So much for him to smell.  He led the way on leash, and it was cool to see him stay on the trail.  He knew exactly where to go even though it was all covered with leaves.  It was also fun to see him climb up the "steps" to the scenic overlook.  I took a lot of pictures and sent some to my sister.  She commented that the dog is definitely one of us....athletic and strong and adventurous.  Totally belongs with our family.  We were on the trail for 80 minutes.




























Got back home and made some dinner and then got to work on a paper that is due for my class this semester.  Knocked out all 8 pages in about 6 hours.  It felt good to get it done.  It's not due until the 20th, but the instructor said we could turn it in early for an extra 5 points and also that she could give us some feedback and we could make some changes if needed.

I took a break in the middle of writing the paper to send a private message to the Jew-ISH Adonis in Los Angeles.  "I just want you to know that I banged myself out this morning with that new red vibrator, and there were two things that got me totally going.  One was thinking about making out in the street outside the bar in San Diego and when I felt that magnificent cock bulging through your white captain pants.  The second was watching you take your shirt off and seeing your strong hairy chest and feeling it pressed up against me."

The reply, a minute later, "You have a habit of giving me a semi at work :-P"

I love it.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Found it!

Found my iPod this morning!!  I thought I lost it in the move, but today it just appeared from under the passenger side seat, where I had already looked a few times.  Super excited about it, because the CD is broken, and listening to radio in the car is just the worst!  Now I just need to find my remote shutter trigger....  

 Rocking on Avail, all the time at home, now all the time in the car, too.  Makes me think of Roy and Bookit.  "To leave I would be crazy."




Saturday, November 2, 2013

Fall Effect

A cool 16-mile cruise on Ex-Girlfriend today.  Severe headwinds, crosswinds, and tail winds, but this booty isn't going to stay tight on its own!  Fall colors on full blast on the floodplain.


Friday, November 1, 2013

Baby Bro turns 24

Scott-bot is 24.  I can't believe he has made it this far, still hooked on the smack going on seven years now.  Tonight he wanted to eat his birthday dinner at Texas Roadhouse.  My mom and dad sat across from us and took this picture, which when then sent to my sister in Florida.

Ironically, today is world vegan day, as well as my anniversary.  Texas Roadhouse did have complimentary peanuts and cold beer, but I had the foresight to eat dinner at home :)

No problem, I mostly wanted to see my baby bro!  Happy Birthday!  I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!