undefined v11.11

"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different result."

Life is too short and the day too beautiful to be depressed and feel like shit all the time.

I made it out of the house. Was pretty unmotivated to ride due to extreme winds but did go to the driving range and hit balls for 80 minutes. This was my first golf outing since this time last year. I was still pretty consistent with all my irons and the pitching wedge. Did not even try the driver or woods, which is fine. Not all shots are 200yds anyway.

I met up with Colleen and Karen for Colleen's brother's birthday party at a bowling alley and we bowled two games. It was a fun time. Karen won the first game, and I won the second. I bowled 104 the first time, and 128 the second time, including two strikes in a row! Choked on the chance for a turkey.

After, I was on the fence about going to the casino. I have been getting really bad migraine headaches again, and I could feel that one was coming on, but I swung by anyway, mostly because I had some coupons for table games. I ended up with $150 in a little over an hour, and I only bought in for $60, so I was up $90. I did something that I usually do not do, and that is leave while I was ahead. I got the eff outta there and felt good about myself. Although as soon as I got to my car and started to drive, the headlights of the oncoming cars were making my head hurt so bad. I thought I was going to puke as I pulled onto my street, and then I saw my brother walking on the shoulder and I picked him up. He super smelled like smoke.

I'm looking forward to boxing class tomorrow.

On Friday, I called Andrew to meet up for lunch, and he was feeling okay and is mobile enough that he was allowed to leave the house. He wanted to picked up one of his friends to join us, and the two of them got high then just played on their phones the time and were discussing ways to get more followers on their various social media pages. Obnoxious. The friend, Chuck, told us that he had started dating a girl because she hit him up online after he 'liked' a photo that she was in on Instagram. She texted him that she had been crying since 4am, which was when he sent a sarcastic tweet about a joke about a friend following girls' twitter feeds. It was a gorgeous day, we sat outside in the sun, but I felt like a fucking idiot. Then they were talking about how lucky Chuck was because his girl would never ask him to go hiking or kayaking or shit like that!! Again, I felt like an idiot sitting there listening to this! I'm glad, though, that Andrew is getting better. He did give me a hug and thank me for calling him. This was the second time he's been out of the house since his accident. He gets tired very quickly and was ready for a nap after.

I'm still quietly pensive. I really want to go ice skating, and I really want to see Bryan in his new winter jacket and coat; I really like his fresh street style. But that is not going to happen, and I accept that reality.

My patience is running thin. I feel like it should be spring time and I have been holed up at home all winter and ready to break out. I feel a major bender coming on.

"I can't take/this bullshit/It's got to fucking quit/I can't drag myself through another day"

Copyrights are playing here on Thursday! So....that's something to look forward to.