I'm feeling exceptionally angsty and angry today. I don't understand why, because I went to the boxing gym this morning and pummeled the shit out of the heavy bag. The trainer even said to me, "You need to relax. Don't be so tense." I said, "I know I'm tense! That's why I'm here."
I have forgot to bring clean underwear for when I'm done working out, shower, and have to go straight in to work. Twice. So I have gone commando until I get to work, launder my work out clothes, then put the clean underwear back on. No big whoop. Today, though, I forgot my bra. It was incredibly uncomfortable. Going bra-less is something I just cannot do! So as soon as I got to work, I laundered my workout clothes, then when they were dry, I put my sport bra on. Not the most comfortable item to wear all day, but more comforting and supportive than goins sans bra!
I mde some really nice temporary teeth for one of the patient's this afternoon. It looked really nice. I enjoy using my hands and take pride in my work.
I'm not looking forward to the holidays. I'm just lonely and miserable and the holidays remind me of that. I almost started crying this afternoon at work when I found myself in the OR by myself. I did start crying a little bit just now.
Right now, if I had access to a pool, I would jump into the deep end, dive all the way to the bottom, and scream as loud as possible until no more air bubbles would be able to escape from my lungs. No one would be able to hear me scream.
I also hate sitting in traffic. Thank goodness sweet apartment is close to work.
"Fuck you this place is dead anyway!" Aka all tiltwheel all the time!
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