Hit somewhat of a wall the past 24 hours. I hope its just the rain.
Allegedly, I drunk dialed Andrew last Saturday when I was in Chicago and he confronted me about it yesterday in the car. I felt totally ambushed. I got really upset. We were involved in a car accident and then a road rage incident that involved two ignorant nigs throwing things out of their car into the window of our car, as we were driving down the highway.
I freaked out and called 911. Yesterday was just awful and I want to to go away.
I came home and I just wanted to cut myself. It took a lot of energy to not do it.
I went up to the church and helped my mom weed the flower beds. Then I went out to eat with my parents, and I felt a lot better.
Woke up today and I feel too lethargic to be apethatic. I hope its just the rain. I'm sitting here now, listening to LFTR PLLR. The songs are perfect for my mood, the gloomy weather, the anxiety I'm feeling for the afternoon ahead. I want to cut myself again. I'm sitting here typing and hitting replay so I won't do it.
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