online adventure

AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAHHAHHAHAHAHA! Wow. So I've had my online dating profile up for less than 24 hours, and I already want to take it down!

These dudes are sooooo fucking ridic! Yes, worthy of ridicule!

"Hey gorgeous, wanna chat?"

"Hey beautiful, how was your weekend?"

WTF? I don't even respond.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that

1. My tolerance for bullshit gets less and less each year

2. I am really starting to get set in my ways, and its only going to get harder to adjust to not being alone

3. I don't mind being alone, actually.

Unrelated note, the sunset last night was spectacular. Orange/purple/pink blowout. My favorite. See my calf sleeve for confirmation.

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Yesterday was 'aight.

Quite productive now that I am recapping, even though I dind't make it out of the house until late late.

I did spend a lot of time in the afternoon looking up stuff online....still gunning for a house to purchase. I have several in the running; lots of new listings. I am anxious to speak to the loan officer at the credit union on Monday.

I also spent a lot a time on various pro photo blogs. I'm getting excited! Winter is such a beautiful season, and I love shooting at night. The sky is usually more clear, and I love when the street looks wet, lots of glare, and when there is snow! Its just such a nice juxtaposition and mix of color temps.

I went ice skating with wiener dog at Steinberg. It was super crowded, but an enjoyable outing. Only $6 because I have my own skates.

Stopped off at the casino on the way home. Perhaps a mistake. Lost the $60 I won last week in about 40 minutes. I was really hoping to be out of the house for a bit longer than that, but I guess it wasn't in the cards. (I'm not sorry).

Texted some people about organizing for a road trip to see some bands next weekend.

Also fired up my online dating profile again. It's soooo stupid. I feel like a total wiener. I quickly glanced through the first three or so pages of my search results, and there was NO ONE I was even remotely interested in contacting. All the dudes on match were super old, and the vibe I got from the other site was more hook-up, not serious.

So, I have, for the time being, decided to leave the profile up. I will not actively pursue anyone, but if some guy contacts me and I'm interested, I will respond. That was my strategy with Bryan, and although that turned out to be a bust, I don't regret it.

I'm kinda sorta hoping that Matt wants to hang out with me again. I know he was disappointed that I kinda ditched him to hang out with Bryan, but he also knows that I sincerely want some one to take me seriously, I desire something more tangible, and that is not the situation that we had. I have tested the waters a bit that past week. He does respond to my texts, but no meet-ups yet. I did see him at a show a few weeks ago, and waved and said hi.

So far today I have been unmotivated to get out of the house. Even though it is sunny the air temp is quite brisk!

Happy Thanksgiving

I went to the boxing gym this morning and pummeled that heavy bag again. I think I might have over-done it this week....went on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday after work, then Thursday morning. Definitely am sore/tired, but it feel good.

I purchased two faux turkeys and a vegan pumpkin pie earlier in the week. I put the faux turkeys in the oven before leaving for the gym, and they were ready when I got home. The kitchen smelled delicious!

The pie was excellent, great texture, nice flaky crust, and a nice pumpkin spice taste to the filling.

Also: Thankful for this song, this video, this memory, the happy times watching this video or hearing this song invokes, punk rock brethern, the "whoa ohs" that go on and on and on an on and on! Gives me chills everytime. If you don't know by now, you never will. If you know where to look, I'm in there, dancing with a penguin.

Simple Pleasures v.11-21

Beautiful fog this morning. Simple Pleasures.

exercise exorcise

I swear I almost orgasmed tonight at boxing. I was working SO HARD! Sweat drenched clothes, hair, glistening arms and legs. I was burning out on the heavy bag, exhausted, and hit it harder as the clock ran down, and I felt like I was about to burst!

I joined the boxing gym to get the aggression out, and I definitely do/did, but I still have a lot of pent-up energy.

Hike of White Rock Nature Preserve

I (finally) made it to White Rock Nature Preserve today. It was a gorgeous afternoon. The bluffs looked beautiful. There was lots of red foliage remaining on some trees, a clear blue sky, and a slight crispness to the air. I was on the trail roughly 105 minutes, and I encountered no other hikers.

View from the parking lot:

To access the trailhead, I had to walk north from the parking lot about 300 feet, then take a private road (including walking over a badass old wooden bridge) to the trail head.

Once through the gate, there was a climb on the White Mine Trail to an area named Madeline's rest, where there were some benches, an information board about the history of the area and some various animals that might be seen.

Some 'shrooms:

I loved the velvet-like texture of the moss on this log:

The White Mine Trail continued up to the top of the bluff to the North/South Ridge Trail. I first headed north to the end. There was a nice little separation in the treeline, and I had a great view of the American Bottoms.

I then backtracked and headed along the South Ridge Trail to the end of that. That portion ended at a Hill Prairie rehab site. It was still a nice view.

I was in the woods most of the time, which is fine, but it wasn't terribly scenic due to the season. Most of the leaves had fallen off the trees and so the trail was just a bunch of brown leaves and bare trees. I actually like the bare trees. It was still a pleasant hike. I'm definitely interested in returning. Would be good in the springtime or earlier in fall. I found it an easier go than Salk Lick, but still relatively challenging due to the initial climbs up the bluff.





Some more pics from the hike:

Despicable He

So....this is probably the second most awful thing my bro has ever done.

I don't know if I wrote about what I consider to be the first most awful.

Here they both are, you can decide. Also, if you are considering trying heroin, please don't. It will destroy everything.

Back story: My bro went out and got himself addicted to heroin about five years ago.

First story: After two prior failed rehab stents, my bro called my mom and said that he was ready to quit for good and he was asking for their help in getting him to a rehab facility. There was a facility in Colorado that would take him, and my parents bought last minute airfare for my bro and my dad to leave immediately.

He was there a few days, and we got a call from the facility that he had gotten into trouble for using the phone without permission. So my mom spoke to my bro and he said he had called his girlfriend (who is also addicted to heroin, of course) because prior to coming to my parents for help to get into rehab again, he had stolen money from her. My parents and my bro came to an agreement with the girlfriend, that my mom would pay her back what my brother stole and in return, she would sever ties with him because he was going to get clean. So my mom gave her a check for $600. She cashed it, it cleared. She called my bro at the rehab and he decided to leave the facility. He hitch-hiked home in two days time, went straight to Sara's house, and they spend the $600.

Second story: Just last night, my mom was cleaning the house and getting ready to host Thanksgiving dinner. For Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners, we eat on the china and silver that my parents' received as a wedding gift over 30 years ago. But the silver wasn't in the box!! My mom confronted my brother about it, and he straight up confessed to selling it all for money to buy heroin about six months ago.

I'm pretty numb to the whole situation. I definitely hate being a part of this family right now, and it all can all be traced back to my brother's heroin addiction.