Sunday, July 31, 2011

Undefined

So today I was minding my own business, actually having an alright time. Just got home from the pool, swam 2600 in about an hour, that included 800 kick. And suddenly shablam! I saw a photo posted of Guiseppe and his new girlfriend outside of a restaurant in Steamboat. I guess its serious enough that they are going on trips together and she is meeting his family.

I felt destroyed seeing this. Like it was all happening again.

And my heart started to race and I got really upset. I immediately wanted to cut myself. I cleaned my room to keep my mind off it. I called Roy and left a voicemail. I texted Ben. Then I went in the bathroom and I did it three times. I immediately felt guilty.

Ben texted me back and Roy called me back a few hours later. I felt so ashamed admitting what I did, and I feel guilty about it now.

I have since calmed down. I even went on a bike ride for an hour, the usual loop.

Also, my bro moved back home two days ago. I'm not sure if I want to say he moved back home. He has, like, one change of clothes and that is it. He's sleeping on the couch downstairs. My mom bought him a phone. I am feeling very anxious about the whole situation.

Here's a video I found of him the day before my parents bailed him out:

http://vimeo.com/22042655

Quite the Video - Scott Furkin from Art McAuliffe on Vimeo.



Also, I have to pay for school by this Thursday. The class I want on TR is full, so i'm in a section on MW that I really don't want to be in. I'm hopping that some one will drop and I can swoop in and snag an open spot. I keep checking the website to see if there are any openings. I've also debated dropping out, but I know that I would just be upset with myself if I did. I need to get this shit done and get on with my life. I'm a 30 year old adult, not a 15 year old crybaby.

Ben reminded me to be patient. I'm just getting restless. If I get into dental school, I would like to quit working the April before and go on my bike journey. I really hope I can get some one else to go on it with me. If not, I will do it solo. My number one choice to go would be Rootbeer b/c I know that he is up for an adventure, does ride, and he doesn't drink/smoke which would mesh well with my plans.

If I don't get in, I would still like to go on the trip. Maybe see if I can get off three months from work (HA!!). If not, then I will have to quit and just figure shit out when I get done. Maybe I'll meet some one along the way or maybe I will find a place that I really like and I will just stay there. Or maybe I'll move to Gainesville already and be a townie and run my own place and join the Gator Swim Team.

I have been looking into cool shit to do this weekend for my four day weekend. Copyrights are having a two night record release show in Chicago, but I really don't want to go up there b/c 1. I just don't care and 2. There is a very decent chance I'll see Giuseppe and I'll just end up getting upset again.

Dopamines are playing a house party in Cincinatti on Friday. Might go check that out, hit up some sweet veg places in Ohio. Would like to see Nathan in Nashville, but he's busy and doesn't return my messages.

I really want to get some new tattoos. I want Roger to do them because I trust him, but again, I am having a hard time being patient. I have looked at some of the portfolio's at All-Star, and I liked what I saw. I might swing by sometime after work this week if it is storming and I can't ride,

Also, Roy and I are going on a badass road trip to the East Coast in three weeks. I am having a hard time being patient for this. I need to get the fuck outta here.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Stay sweet, MPLS.

Flew to MPLS on last Sunday. Direct flight, slept the whole way up. Sam was at the airport to pick me up. It was so nice to see him again! We embraced and kissed each other hello out on the sidewalk at the pickup location.

The day was beautiful. Warm, sunny, blue sky, white puffy clouds. Sam lives near the airport, by Lake Nokomis, and we went back to his house and put on our swimsuits and walked over to the beach. We brought a few beers to drink in secret as we laid in the shade by the lake. After we finished our beers, we went into the water. At first it was a little cold, but we kept wading our farther and farther until we were up to our shoulders. Sam went under water, but I originally resisted getting my hair wet. Sam was trying to splash me a little bit, and we were laughing and having a good time. I finally, suddenly, went all the way under, too stubborn to let Sam have the pleasure of dunking me!

We floated around in the lake for a good hour, playful laughing. We exited the water and laid in the sun on the beach for a bit to dry out before heading back to the house. We changed and Sam had arranged a bicycle for me to ride the rest of the weekend. MPLS is incredibly bike friendly, and I loved just pedaling around a new city.





We first went to Hard Times Cafe. Sam got an order of biscuits and gravy, which was an awesome mushroom-cashew base. I got a very satifsying seitan Philly cheeze steak and a cup of lentil soup. Oh yeah, we also had mixed up a bottle of gin with some a little lime juice and some club soda, so we were secretly pulling off that the whole time.





After Hard Times, we pedaled to my hotel, which was called Aloft. It was totally awesome there. There was an awesome lobby with a bar, a pool table, a sweet food counter. A patio area with lots of awesome chairs/loungers. The pool, which also had a hot tub. The room was totally minimalist and pretty bad ass. We put our stuff away, and Sam fell asleep for about two hours. He was sleeping hard!!

He woke up about nine pm and it was still a little light outside. We got ready to go to a show that was happening at Hexagon. Pretty Boy, Rational Anthem, Dan Padilla. It was a great show. No cover, decent beer prices, lots of people in attendance.






After the show, we pedaled around the city and headed back to the hotel to pick up some beers so we could drink outside somewhere. We ended up by the river at Gold Medal Park. We picked out a spot in a dark area by some benches and ditched our bikes in the grass. And finally...I had been waiting all day. Sam pulled my face to his and it was exactly what we both had building up to all evening. I unbuttoned my shorts and Sam could feel how wet I was. He fingered me for a long time. I came repeatedly, and my shorts were soaked, and there was a huge wet spot on the ground. We made out for a good hour down there by the water. Two times we heard people walking across the bridge overhead.







We eventually got back on our bikes and pedaled back to the hotel. Once upstairs in our room, we banged out in one of the beds for a long solid time. I haven't checked the timestamps on my iTunes, but I know it was a long time. Sam likes to feel my squirt all over his torso. I love when he holds me tight and fingers me and can feel it run down his fingers and arm. Sam ended up shooting into my mouth when I blew him a we switched to the other bed to pass out shortly after that.

We slept in late, easily until after noon. I don't remember if we did it again when we woke up before leaving; I don't think we did. We went to get food at Seward's Cafe, which had a delightful patio area. Again, the day was perfect, and it was so nice to just be outside.

We pedaled to Sam's house and watched some tv streaming thru the netflix via the wii. His roommates are all really nice and welcoming and I had a good time joking around with everyone. Sam had to run some errands. I was all too happy to pass out in the recliner for what seemed like hours I was sleeping so hard!

We left the house to go to the Triple Rock. Sam didn't have tix for the D4 show and wanted to be sure to get in, so we stood out on the street socializing with people and drinking our gin from the waterbottle! Sam got a ticket and we went to eat at Hard Times again. I got a gyro, which was also delicious. It was same house-made seitan as was in the Philly, but it was wrapped in a pita and there was lot of lettuce, which was what I wanted. Sam got a hummus plate, and I smeared some it on the gyro.

After food we went to the Triple Rock. I was feeling full, and we got drinks. After the frist two beers, I felt like it was going to be one of those nights when no matter how much I drink, I'm just not going to catch a buzz. I was also still kinda tired and not really in a show mood. We saw sets from Slow Death and Dan Padilla. Rational Anthem came up and played two songs.







We went to the bar for a round of tequila shots before D4 came on. Paddy was dressed up as a wolfman Elvis with a mask and a brown fur vest. D4 was great. They played all songs I wanted to hear, and thank god didn't close with DWCNI, b/c I feel like they always close with that. It's a jam and all, but I'm glad they mixed it up a little bit. The onstage banter was great, the crowd was way into it. I was kinda off to the side for the first couple songs. Then they played 'Gainesville' and Sam came to where I was standing and grabbed me and dragged me more in the front and was sang along together. I was glad and got more into the set after that.

After the show we went to the bar side of the triple rock for a few then went out to the street and hung out. Sam was incredibly wasted but was able to ride his bike back to the hotel. Since there were no pool hours posted, we figured we could go swimming, but we could not. We did lay out on the patio for a while, Sam smoked cigarettes, both of us drank some of the malt liquor we had in the fridge upstairs.



We went upstairs and banged out for a bit before falling asleep. Sam had a gnarly cut on his arm and the sheets got a little bit bloody. Sam was feeling a little sick the next morning and I called downstairs to get a late check out time. The girl at the desk said that was not a problem, so we stayed until 130.

Sam railed me from behind before we left, then he flipped me over and held me close again so he could feel me getting tighter and tighter around his fingers then soaking his arm. We 69'd for a bit again, and Sam came in my mouth again. We got dressed and pedaled to his house. Sam had to work, so he dropped me off at the airport on his way in, but not before we went to get some pizza. I really wanted some carbs, and we could get drinks.

At the airport, we embraced and kissed each other goodbye. I did not want to leave. All around, a great weekend. Beautiful weather, awesome hangouts, delicious veg food, great shows. Stay Sweet, MPLS. L.Y.L.A.S. I promise I'll be back, hopefully before next July.