suck my cancer!

seriously, suck it! (i'm feeling slightly angsty today). my shit started bleeding again and i really don't feel like doing laundry right now even though i should just handle it right now and be done. and i've got a lot of pentup energy, which is somewhat of a surprise considering my schedule.


this weekend was pretty good.
on friday night i went to some opening at a polish art center way south. rich was displaying his video work. i ended up hanging out with a boy, joe, the whole time. i met joe earlier this week when he and rich worked on some variety/comedy stuff and i taped it. we had a lot in common and enjoyed pleasant conversation the whole evening. he swims a lot and gave me some clementine oranges, and i offered him some cookies that i baked to bring to the opening. i shoulda got them digits before we parted!

on saturday i worked all afternoon. came home made some satisfying lasagna. the bottom layer was just sauce. in retrospect, this is a waste of a layer. like i should put something else with the sauce. for the second layer, i put silken tofu in the blender with garlic, onion, and oregano, until it was creamy and smooth. the third layer was spinach, broccili, and upton's seitan. there was not room for additional layers as the lasagna had breeched the top of the pan. i wrapped the pan in foil and baked in the oven at 350F degrees for one hour.

then i headed to the movies. i finally made it to see "let the right one in." i have been trying to get to this movie since the chicago international film festival was screening it back in november. it was what i thought it would be but also not. i was expecting it to be more terrifying/horror. the story was great, and i was intrigued by the fact that its a swedish film, shot in the 2000s, yet everyone dresses and cuts their hair like its 1982. blows my mind. the main characters were precious. it didn't terrify me, which was actually a relief since i am such a pansy when horror movies are involved, and i found the story to be quite endearing.

after the movie, i made the mistake of opting to take the cta. took 90 minutes to take a train 2 1/2 miles. not exaggerating. would have walked if the temp wasn't as low as it was and if the neighborhood wasn't so sketch. but what's else was i supposed to do? i'm too thrifty to pay a cab fare.

today is sunday. i worked all afternoon and had a bitchin' hunger headache when i got home. made some delicious pizza and some brownies. i was a bit disappointed with the brownies. i'm still perfecting the recipe i use. they are dense, but this particular time, i only used 1c. sugar. i should have put more in b/c the brownies don't taste sweet. they are not gross, but i am aware of the slightly bitter/unsweetened cocoa. they are the perfect moisture content, and this was the first time i've made brownies with a shot of silken tofu instead of the NRG.

shit i am looking forward to this week:
school starts tuesday. thank god. (i actually really enjoy school and am looking forward to the second semester of physics). i am excited to start finishing things up and applying to dental schools and rocking the DAT. schools i am heavily considering and want to make trips to visit within the next year are UIC b/c i actually really like chicago. SIU b/c i really miss my family and friends in stl. Temple, b/c i love philly and the program there is huge into public health, which i am curious about! Temple also offers joint enrollment in the DMD and MBA programs, so i could potentially graduate with two advanced degress in four years. Arizona b/c the southwest is warm and i love running around outside and riding bikes and hiking. Fifth choice is undecided. i've looked into texas, oregon, minnesota, and boston.

tomorrow the measure is playing at ronny's, so my plan is to go see that show, hang out with people, and listen to GLORIA on repeat on the jukebox and not get served alcohol.

wednesday is payday.

i rec'd a coupon for american airlines. i have to fly by 5/15/09. thats still kinda far in the future, but i before i know it, it'll be spring around here. i might head to dallas to kick it with aunt patty, or go to philly or maybe nashville for a few days.

my sis and i are plotting to get to switzerland this summer so we can gorde ourselves with rich chocolates, blow those massive horn pipes on a mountainside, churn some butter, purchase coo coo clocks, and learn about our heritage; meet some other furkins. (our paternal grandmother was telling me about this, how our family's trade was butter churners. and a furkin is a barrel for storing butter. its also sometimes used in reference to a barrel for beer, and there is a brewery in england by the name of firkin.)

i'm still not doing any cardio, which frustrates the hell out of me, but i do squats in the am and pm as i'm brushing my teeth but i am slightly insane! my arms are so tiny. i have lost a lot of muscle mass, but i am still very toned all over, especially triceps and abs.

we're watching the SNL inaguration bash right now. its pretty hilarious. especially the bill clinton stuff, and of course fey as palin.


i also found $5 on the ground. i used $2.38 to buy four bananas and one can of pineapple chunks in their own juice.

currently:
i am not cold.
but i am lonely.
i haven't cried since wednesday, which occurred (just A LITTLE bit) when i was in my car on the way to second full time job and i was overwhelmed by a song that was on the radio and i missed some one who is very far away right now.
i am in a somewhat pissy mood.
but i don't hate myself anymore.