Thursday Night Show Re-Cap

The Copyrights played here last night, and while I enjoyed the show, I was super disappointed about how a certain altercation unfolded.

The show was set-up last minute at FUBAR, and when I showed up, there was lot of cars parked on the street and a lot of young dudes in black metal face paint posted up outside. I also saw Noel outside, smoking, and I went over to say hello.

I asked him if the show was legit, or if this was some bullshit bill with like 8 bands, 6 of which were going to be high school kids? He said it was legit. The show I was there to see was on the lounge side, and some usual metal show on the venue side.

So I went in as Better Days for just starting. Travis is exciting to watch play, and I have an innocent crush on Chris Ve. After Better Days were Haddonfields. Not their best, but fine for what it was...a last minute opening slot on a Thursday.

Copyrights plated third, and I was so excited! I was up near the front, standing next to Ashley, dancing and singing along to all the songs. Ronnie Arrival was their tour drummer and he played SO FAST!! It. Was. Badass.

Several songs in to their set, a kid in face paint from the other show came to the lounge side. He had a beer and was spraying it around and was being an idiot about the place, pushing people who were just trying to watch the show and have a good time. I took a hit to the left side of my head/face and all over my left shoulder/chest. Mildly frustrating because I had washed me hair prior to coming to the show, and I didn't want to have to wash it again in a few hours before work.

So this kid is aggrevating the rest of us for probably four songs....so a good ten minutes, then the next thing I know, some one dives for him and the two are air born onto the stage/right into Kevin on stage left. The mics get knocked off the stand, I see fists punching, and the band actually stops in the middle of the song.

Allegedly, this kid had hit Travis' girlfriend Esther, and Travis retaliated. There was at least one guy holding the younger kid in face paint back because he was obviously trying to fight back. Esther came up to him and spit in his face.

I was really disappointed with the outcome of this ordeal. Travis apologized to the band, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. But he punched my girlfriend." Adam said he understood, forget about it, and they started back up with the next song. I was pretty distracted for the next few songs, but got back into the set. They played Kids of the Black Hole, which is fuckin' jam. I'm glad She Turns It Up wasn't on the set list, because I fucking hate that song.

Two Cow played last. I stayed for maybe half their set. I liked it okay. Matt loves that band, and he told me they are def an acquired taste, and I have to agree with him.

I said goodbye to Brett and Kevin before I left, thanked them for coming here to play, then wished them a safe travel home. Also had a nice conversation with Clarkson Sr. Still a forever favorite. He is currently sober as well.

I'm have been processing the fight all day. Yeah, the kid was being a fucking nuisance, and I'm doubtful that he singled Esther out as a female and hit her out of violence toward women. It was low of her to spit on him. I was also put-off by Travis' decision to resort to punches. I'm was put-off by the fact that security was nowhere to be found. Sure, the usual suspects were at the show. We're all at least 30 years old and know how to handle our shit. But I'm surprised that this kid was allowed to go like that for as long as he did, then have the situation blow up into what it did.

When all is said and done, though, I did have a good time. I like watching The Copyrights perform. I was slightly hoarse from singing along. And like I said, Ronnie Arrival was a real treat on this tour!

They did not play Let's Get The Fuck Outta Here, which I can't even recall the last time I saw that song performed live. I thought it would've been appropriate for this show considering the altercation and also Adam's general dislike of STL.

They did not play this song, which is a shame, because it's a total jam:

mid-week summary

I'm feeling exceptionally angsty and angry today. I don't understand why, because I went to the boxing gym this morning and pummeled the shit out of the heavy bag. The trainer even said to me, "You need to relax. Don't be so tense." I said, "I know I'm tense! That's why I'm here."

I have forgot to bring clean underwear for when I'm done working out, shower, and have to go straight in to work. Twice. So I have gone commando until I get to work, launder my work out clothes, then put the clean underwear back on. No big whoop. Today, though, I forgot my bra. It was incredibly uncomfortable. Going bra-less is something I just cannot do! So as soon as I got to work, I laundered my workout clothes, then when they were dry, I put my sport bra on. Not the most comfortable item to wear all day, but more comforting and supportive than goins sans bra!

I mde some really nice temporary teeth for one of the patient's this afternoon. It looked really nice. I enjoy using my hands and take pride in my work.

I'm not looking forward to the holidays. I'm just lonely and miserable and the holidays remind me of that. I almost started crying this afternoon at work when I found myself in the OR by myself. I did start crying a little bit just now.

Right now, if I had access to a pool, I would jump into the deep end, dive all the way to the bottom, and scream as loud as possible until no more air bubbles would be able to escape from my lungs. No one would be able to hear me scream.

I also hate sitting in traffic. Thank goodness sweet apartment is close to work.

"Fuck you this place is dead anyway!" Aka all tiltwheel all the time!

Simple Pleasures

I love a crisp winter night and the smell of wood burning in the fireplace.

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"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different result."

Life is too short and the day too beautiful to be depressed and feel like shit all the time.

I made it out of the house. Was pretty unmotivated to ride due to extreme winds but did go to the driving range and hit balls for 80 minutes. This was my first golf outing since this time last year. I was still pretty consistent with all my irons and the pitching wedge. Did not even try the driver or woods, which is fine. Not all shots are 200yds anyway.

I met up with Colleen and Karen for Colleen's brother's birthday party at a bowling alley and we bowled two games. It was a fun time. Karen won the first game, and I won the second. I bowled 104 the first time, and 128 the second time, including two strikes in a row! Choked on the chance for a turkey.

After, I was on the fence about going to the casino. I have been getting really bad migraine headaches again, and I could feel that one was coming on, but I swung by anyway, mostly because I had some coupons for table games. I ended up with $150 in a little over an hour, and I only bought in for $60, so I was up $90. I did something that I usually do not do, and that is leave while I was ahead. I got the eff outta there and felt good about myself. Although as soon as I got to my car and started to drive, the headlights of the oncoming cars were making my head hurt so bad. I thought I was going to puke as I pulled onto my street, and then I saw my brother walking on the shoulder and I picked him up. He super smelled like smoke.

I'm looking forward to boxing class tomorrow.

On Friday, I called Andrew to meet up for lunch, and he was feeling okay and is mobile enough that he was allowed to leave the house. He wanted to picked up one of his friends to join us, and the two of them got high then just played on their phones the time and were discussing ways to get more followers on their various social media pages. Obnoxious. The friend, Chuck, told us that he had started dating a girl because she hit him up online after he 'liked' a photo that she was in on Instagram. She texted him that she had been crying since 4am, which was when he sent a sarcastic tweet about a joke about a friend following girls' twitter feeds. It was a gorgeous day, we sat outside in the sun, but I felt like a fucking idiot. Then they were talking about how lucky Chuck was because his girl would never ask him to go hiking or kayaking or shit like that!! Again, I felt like an idiot sitting there listening to this! I'm glad, though, that Andrew is getting better. He did give me a hug and thank me for calling him. This was the second time he's been out of the house since his accident. He gets tired very quickly and was ready for a nap after.

I'm still quietly pensive. I really want to go ice skating, and I really want to see Bryan in his new winter jacket and coat; I really like his fresh street style. But that is not going to happen, and I accept that reality.

My patience is running thin. I feel like it should be spring time and I have been holed up at home all winter and ready to break out. I feel a major bender coming on.

"I can't take/this bullshit/It's got to fucking quit/I can't drag myself through another day"

Copyrights are playing here on Thursday! So....that's something to look forward to.

weekend recap

Friday night I went to Lemmons to see Nato and Co. Big Parker was the tour drummer, and it was nice to say hello and catch up. There was a lot of people at the show, and it made me feel good that several people asked me where I've been...they noticed that I haven't been hanging out. I still was not feeling well, though, and abstained from alcohol.

On Saturday, I was debating between going up to Chi for Bookmate's solo opening and to see Rootbeer for his birthday. I asked my bro to go with me, but he had other plans. No big deal; I had agreed to play at a trivia event with Karen and some others that night anyway. It was also a costume event. We dressed up as characters from the classic board game Clue, but didn't win the costume contest. We did, however, win second place overall and $300 prize money. We were only one point from first place. I need to be more aggressive about my answers. I didn't push enough for one of the answers, "methane" and we got it wrong. This happened at a separate event. I knew the answer was "Treasure Island" but the team voted it down.

Today I spent a lot of time online searching for real estate. I'm going to choose to build my own house. I found a vacant lot in an area I want that is also near my work. I can afford the lot. I don't know if I can afford the construction. I looked at several prefab home websites, and I saw some really interesting floor plans. Green construction, too! I'm exciited about it!! Some one from the building company will be contacting me within two days to answer my questions. I hope this can come to fruition.

I bought some peppermint tea at the store tonight. There was some text on the side of the package: The first cup moistens my lips and throat. The second cup shatters my lonliness. The this causes the wrongs of this life to fade gently from recollection. The fourth purifies my soul. The fifth lifts me to the realms of the unwinking gods."

Feeling MPLS again

Burn down the house and move to...Minnesota?

Three days ago my sweet dude broke it off via text message, which only adds insult to injury. Even though I suspected this was a long time coming, I genuinely thought maybe he really was just busy getting his art show paintings finished. Denial is a powerful thing.

I've been quietly pensive about it, and as of this posting have not responded to the text message.

I did however, join a boxing gym and find a sweet apartment that will let me lease month to month.

I cannot find a video of Hold Tight! performing 'Brother Bear' to enclose at the end of this post.

"Why can't you look me in the eye and tell me all the reasons that I'm not worth a damn to you?"

Happy Birthday, Baby Bro

Happy Birthday, Young Loud Scotty. I miss having you around and you are always on my mind.